Drunken ramlings

As I look back
over my life,
I am struck by post cards
ruined snaps shots
faded posters of a time I can't recall.
I am a lier
I am told really,
snake in a glen
son of a military man.
Tested teachers in school
found maths very cool,
unlike kids my age,
was given a desk in the corner,
smartest kid around or fool?
well night was, what night shd be,
a girl, glass of wine,
went along dine.
"got a rubber?
can't get it up!
You are in love,
go, be with her"
love has poisoned my soul,
some tired future,
can't get off the disease,
Me, greatest cannibal of all,
Dig, bury me alive in a hole.
Remove my glass
from this hall of mirrors,
may land up breaking all,
you look like her,
I mean how could you
when no one ever did,
let me draw you,
on paper, not nigh,
Saw you driving other day,
new car, new life at speed a little high.
"Book a ticket, get back to her city, I am not what you seek."
Niether am I!
Living life in cruel bindings,
reading love only in school books,
The pimp!
my wallet, butterfly , shutter bugs & posers,
Stories, cravings, sufferance and the loosers.
Night is what night should be,
A girl, glass of wine.
can't wait for the room,
park, secluded, dark,
hide and seek, fear, tears and punishment,
runaway at twenty,
Who am I?
looser, warrior, traveller,
in my mind words plenty!
"can't get it up".
drunken brawls,
night crawls,
lumbering slowly through the darkness,
Sun is so big and red,
like the lips,
night was what a night should be,
A girl, glass of wine.
What if the guests return?
you will be asked to go,
midnight alleys roam,
"you are my friend, I will welcome you home."
butterfly, shutter bugs, pimp and my wallet,
Well night was a night should be,
A girl, glass of wine.