what?

What has befallen the race of men? Why is it that words like integrity and honesty are sitting wounded in a secluded corner of some shady bar. Where is that famed moralistic Sanatan outlook. We were supposed to be harbingers of rational thought and move into spiritual plane. Why truth resembles a woman violated, a man crestfallen. Now the question can be, why am I too bothered about all this?
I walk over but again both of them look at me as if an alcoholic looks at a drunkard spilling a few ounce of scotch. I guess, they look for new identity, brand makeover. Why have they become a pariah? Even a pedophile has more friends , pimp more clients and liars more women. Have I ever bothered about them myself? Let me think, I have used them selectively and as per my definitions. Oh here she comes , bringing moonlight in the night, Let me bask in her glow tonight.
“will you help us? Spare us a thought, will you? We have been humped in , bumped in, cars, hotels, Motels and bars.”
I can not spare you a thought but let me spare some to myself. Why do I hear you too often? Is it because I analyse life too much, don’t exhibit my emotions because of the fear of getting hurt? Do I sometimes meet the real me? Yes I do. I let myself be known but who read me? I refuse to meet myself because I don’t want to loose again.
Let me spare a thought. Isn’t integrity linked to being me? Isn’t honesty a part of our upbringing?
People walk around today calling everyone their best friend. The term doesn't have any real meaning anymore. Mere acquaintances are lavished with hugs and kisses upon a second or at most third meeting, birthday cards get passed around offices so everybody can scribble a snippet of sentimentality for a colleague they barely met, and everyone just loves everyone. As a result when you tell somebody you love them today, it isn't much heard. I love you Kalyan, you are my best friend. I can't imagine going through life without you as my best friend. " I'm not going to kiss you however."
Love has passed the shores and I am contend with never having to say these 3 words to anyone in the world again. I said them already and this is my tribute to you too both – Honesty & integrity.Do i like being me? best, leave it hanging.